Addict

by Âlâ Tevfik

 Here we go again,

Another new beginning,

Another love story…

Or…

Is it a love story,,, yes! Might be, might not…

Nothing is sure for certain…

We fall, and fall…

Get our hearts broken, over and over again…

And, the thing is, we never learn from our mistakes…

It’s like a drug…

You’re addicted to the Heartaches… to the Painful Memories stuck in your mind… and to the Sufferings…

But you keep telling yourself; It doesn’t matter…

I’ll move on and I’ll be healed with time…

And yes,,, after a while…

There you are, breathing again… moved on…

Looking and searching…

And you just cannot control the hunger…

Hunting for another journey, another beginning, another someone, another love story…

Looking forward to it…

Yes, you are addicted to it…

And it’s just too late,

There’s no place to run to, no place to hide…

Too late,

You can’t get rid of it now…

It runs through your veins…

Asking you not to fight back,

Just, give in…

Let it flow…

This is what you wanted,,, you’ve longed to have it all over again…

You’re ached, now here it is…

Your heart beats are racing,

You can hear them, feel them… as if your heart wants to get out of your body…

Beating and beating… about to stop…

It’s getting itchier, more and more…

No use from controlling it,

You can’t resist it,

Let it flow,

Just, give in,

Don’t fight back…

And here we are,

You fell for it, Again…

“For the last time,,, this is going to be the last chance, oh, my poor heart, what have I done to you…”

Keep lying to yourself won’t help it, no illusions my dear,

You know,

It won’t be the last time,

You’ll do it all over again,

With a guilty pleasure…

Do it all over again,

There’s no room for escape…

— Lala Tevfik

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